I wonder...

 I wonder what I would have been like, had I not fallen in love with Jesus. There's no telling the ridiculous decisions I would have made, or how many people I would have allowed to take advantage of me. I think that if I would have never became a christian and a pastors wife, then right now I  might be living out one of these 2 scenarios...which makes me wonder if I'm a little bi-polar, because they are so opposite!

1. I would be...

Worshipping "mother-nature". You know, one of those hippy-type, eating organic granola , wearing hemp jewelry and peasant skirts. Painting in the park.

I would have many, many tattoos

I would give much of my time and money to "good-causes", that have nothing to do with the Kingdom of God.

Or...

2. I would be...

A rock star

I would wear skinny jeans and super mod tops or vintage band t's, everyday. 

I would have a bright-pink streak through my hair

I would have many, many tattoos (hmmm?)

I would be completely worshipping myself and giving in to my sinful desires.

I would be deep into debt due to spending all of my money on designer jeans, shoes, etc... 

With either of these scenarios, I would be...

Hopeless. Wondering why these things that are so appealing to me, have left me so empty.

Thank you God for rescuing me from what I could have been!

I am beyond thankful to be living a life fulfilled, through Jesus Christ.

Walking the fence

This afternoon while cleaning the bathroom, oddly enough, this scripture came to my mind. It is a familiar scripture, but I had never heard it spoken through The Message translation, so I looked it up;

Revelation 3:15-16 "I know you inside and out, and find little to my liking. You're not cold, you're not hot- far better to be either cold or hot! You're stale. You're stagnant. You make me want to vomit."

Woah...that's harsh. But sadly, that is true of most of us, at least some of the time. We become so acclimated to church, and the routine of it that we become stale, stagnant, without growth or passion.

God obviously wants our whole heart to be on fire for Him. But it's crazy to me that God would prefer for us to be cold, to completely turn our back on Him, than to be luke-warm, walking the fence.

I am being challenged to uncover areas where I might still be keeping just a little for myself. Areas where I am selfish, prideful, and not allowing God to do all that He wants to in my life. Areas where I am tempted to just touch my toes into dangerous territory.

Which side of the fence are you on?